you up? it is 11:27 pm. do you ever feel the enormity of the universe? feel small under a roof that could collapse anytime at the movement of what lies under? what if stars are just freckles on the face of the night sky? do you feel the unread messages piling up on your shoulder? or the time that slips by faster than you can grasp it? 

what keeps you awake at night?

can’t sleep? do you wonder if your mom’s kindness would stretch further if you weren’t around? do you know why i am so profoundly good at the destruction of my own existence? do you think the cracks on your walls are there because they tried to reach out their hands to wipe away your tears but were too burdened by the weight of holding a house together? 

what keeps you awake at night? 

staring at the ceiling? you ever think about how everything is connected? did you read every story that sits in the wrinkles of your grandma’s face? what if i told you that teeth are the only part of the human body that can’t heal themselves, and how my memories sit at the back of each tooth in my mouth? you ever think how you sometimes feel like a stranger to yourself? did i ever tell you about the time i thought my heart was rotten and tried to rip it out?

what keeps you awake at night? 

tossing and turning? mind if i repeat the story that changed the trajectory of my life? would you make more time for me in an alternate reality? if destiny rests in our hands, would you hold mine but not let go this time? and what is it about the city light that draws me in? did you know that it kills me to think you might not miss me when i leave? oh, and did you know i’ve never felt like i had a place to call home?

what keeps you awake at night? 

you up? i was meant to look up into the night. sometimes i feel the stars pull at my ribs and for some reason the earth will pull even harder. i am forever ripped apart and stitched together again & again. i guess i’m no different than what’s around me after all.

what keeps you awake at night? 

could you please wait a little longer? i think i have more things to tell. would you entertain one more question before slipping into slumber? ever feel like we’re sitting on the still hands of a flat laid clock? it is 3:42 am. 

what keeps you awake at night?