whats your favorite color? have you ever been in love? dogs or cats? did you have someone who already knew the answers to these questions? are you trying to unlearn their address too? do you sometimes feel their shape indented in the mattress? and tell me, does it pain you like a phantom limb? do they float through your halls like the ghost they are? do you say their name in the mirror at midnight, and when you do, are you hoping this time they’ll haunt you? i’m sorry, maybe this is too much. am i too much? how many plants did you have growing up? how many did you kill? i ask because i used to drench my flowers in my hope and drown them in my expectations and i’m sorry if i do the same thing to you. can you feel them forgetting you? maybe that’s a weird question. i guess what i mean is: did you turn in your keys to their apartment or are you holding onto them for just a little longer? do you remember where they keep their spoons? how many meals have you thrown out to try and break the habit of making an extra? if you saw them on the street would you look them in the eyes? and if you look them in the eyes would you check to make sure they’re still blue-ish green? have you let them go yet? sorry, what i mean is: are you still watering the plants you killed?