a heartached girl turned incurable nihilist

  • ramblings III

    my nail polish is fading and you’re giving up on me. my hair is a mess and so is my mind. i stopped reading and started sleeping once the sun started to show. i… read more

  • ramblings II

    it is 1:56am and i was going to write something profound here but instead i burst into tears looking at a picture of laura palmer. i hold on to something until i do not… read more

  • a lesson from winter

    i read today in the horoscopes that winter has been rough for you. it was something about change and loss,  and letting go / letting it go / letting me go. have you let… read more

  • ‘home’

    my mother used to bake her dreams into my dinner to make up for the ones she lost in the delivery room and lately i’ve been crumbling beneath the weight of ways i could… read more

  • ramblings Ⅰ

    i missed your call the other day. i eat my apples sliced. i am nineteen. i am healing from things i did not tell my mom. i am healing from things i did tell… read more

  • i remember

    i remember this time when / i was eight years old and / i thought i could save everyone so / i hid your bottles in my bedroom / buried them beneath stuffed animals… read more

  • i used to be a writer

    after Michelle Awad’s “I used to be a poet” i used to be a writer / because someone once told me i talked too much / but that was only after someone else said… read more

  • 20 questions

    whats your favorite color? have you ever been in love? dogs or cats? did you have someone who already knew the answers to these questions? are you trying to unlearn their address too? do… read more

  • old habits are the hardest to break

    i think i forgot how to drive so i’ve been doing laps around your old neighborhood. partly because i know everything’s changed and partly because i know nothing’s changed and all i’ve ever known… read more